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The Guilt of Leaving the Clinical World Behind

Published August 26, 2024

If you’ve ever thought about stepping away from your clinical role, you might know that little twinge of guilt that creeps in. It’s that nagging voice that says, “But what about your patients?” or “What will your coworkers think?” You’re not alone in feeling this way—it’s something many healthcare professionals struggle with when considering a big shift away from patient care.

 

Why Does Leaving Feel So Heavy?

For so many of us in healthcare, our jobs aren’t just jobs—they’re a huge part of who we are. The years of training, the sacrifices, the long hours—they all add up to a strong sense of identity. So when you start thinking about leaving the clinical world behind, it can feel like you’re leaving behind a part of yourself. Some of the most common sources of guilt include:

  • Worrying About Your Patients: Even when you know someone else will step in, it’s easy to feel like you’re abandoning the people who’ve come to rely on you. You build relationships with patients, and walking away from those connections can be tough. I had too many patients cry when I told them I was leaving; it was almost enough to make me stay. I had taken care of many of them for years, and they were so upset with me when I left. That guilt stays with you for a while, but you need to remember that your well-being matters too.
  • Feeling Like You’re Leaving Your Team Hanging: Healthcare is all about teamwork. When you consider leaving, you might worry about how your departure will impact your colleagues, especially if they’re already stretched thin. And let’s face it, we are always short-staffed and stretched thin. However, that is not your responsibility to correct.
  • The Whole “Calling” Thing: We’re often told that healthcare is a calling, not just a job. So, when you feel like stepping away, it can feel like you’re turning your back on something you’re “meant” to do. That kind of pressure is heavy. If you don’t feel this way, THAT IS OK! I honestly never understood how people feel this way- nursing was a job that paid the bills. I did it to the best of my ability, but it was never a “calling” for me. But I also understand that many people do feel this way; it is still OK to leave and do something else. You can leave the bedside and still help patients, just in a different role outside of direct patient care.
  • On the opposite side: Maybe you don’t feel guilty about leaving, which in turns causes guilt. Anxiety comes in all shapes and sizes. It’s OK to NOT feel guilty about leaving- your mental health is just as important as your patients.

 

Guilt Doesn’t Mean You’re Making the Wrong Choice

Here’s the thing: that guilt you feel isn’t necessarily a bad thing. It’s a sign of how much you care. Your empathy and commitment are what made you good at your job in the first place. But guilt doesn’t have to hold you back forever. Here are a few reminders:

  • You’ve Already Made an Impact: The difference you’ve made in your clinical role doesn’t disappear just because you’re moving on. You’ve done important work, and that will always count. Those patients aren’t going to forget the impact you made on them just because you are no longer there.
  • It’s Okay to Look After Yourself: Let’s be real—burnout is rampant in healthcare. It’s okay to prioritize your well-being or pursue a career that better fits where you are in life now. That’s not selfish; it’s smart. You don’t want to get to the point where you lose the empathy that makes you good at your job.
  • You Can Still Help People: Leaving clinical work doesn’t mean you’re done making a difference. Plenty of non-clinical roles still allow you to have an impact on patient care, the industry, or the community in ways that might be a better fit for you now. For example, you could be working in the medical device industry, teaching clinical staff about the newest technology and how it will benefit their patients.

 

How to Handle the Guilt

So, how do you deal with that guilt without letting it keep you stuck? Here are some strategies:

  1. Acknowledge Your Feelings: Don’t just push the guilt aside or pretend it’s not there. It’s okay to feel conflicted. Let yourself process it.
  2. Talk to Others Who’ve Been There: You’re not the first person to feel this way, and talking to others who’ve made similar moves can be super reassuring. There are communities out there where you can find advice and support. Reach out to your network on LinkedIn- chances are that you already know someone who has made the move away from direct patient care. From experience, I can tell you that people who have left the bedside can’t stop talking about how great that move was.
  3. Change How You See the Situation: Instead of framing it as leaving something behind, try thinking of it as evolving into the next phase of your career. You’re not abandoning anyone—you’re just growing.
  4. Celebrate What You’ve Done: Take a moment to look back on all the good you’ve accomplished in your clinical role. Whether it’s a life you’ve saved, a patient you’ve comforted, or a colleague you’ve supported, those wins matter.
  5. Find New Ways to Make a Difference: If you miss that sense of purpose, consider ways to stay connected. Volunteering, mentoring, or even consulting can give you that fulfillment without the burnout.

 

Moving Forward with Confidence

Leaving the clinical world is a big decision, and it’s natural to feel some guilt along the way. But that guilt is also a sign of how much you’ve cared and how dedicated you’ve been. It doesn’t mean you’re making the wrong choice. Remember, you’re allowed to grow, change, and prioritize what’s right for you at this stage in your life.

So if you’re struggling with the guilt of stepping away, know that it’s okay to feel that way—but don’t let it hold you back. The healthcare world is huge, and there are so many ways you can use your skills and compassion beyond direct patient care. You’ve spent a lot of time caring for others; now it’s time to care for yourself too.

How did you feel when you left the bedside for a non-clinical role? How did you handle it? Drop a comment and tell us about it!

If you are experiencing burnout and need some help, Coursera has a free course called “Mental Health and Resilience for Healthcare Workers.” If you need more individual help, Dr. Eva Serber is a clinical psychologist who offers free 15 minute consultations for new clients.

 

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